Haiti...

Haiti experienced the worst earthquake on record for any Caribbean country and it pains me to my core.

I've watched the media just post photo upon photo of the pain, hurt, anguish and despair of a people who have been suffering for decades.

I pray for my friends who are of Haitian descent...the Pascals, the Micheles, the Laurents, the Pauls, and a very very dear friend Sascha who taught me sooo much about the plight of a forgotten people in the Caribbean.

In 2007, I went to the Dominican Republic...the resort that I stayed in was filled with people from Haiti who were working to support their families.

I learned a lot in that visit...I mean after all DR is just as impoverished as Haiti however for some strange reasons the Dominicans frowned upon Haitians as a lesser people...it truly bugged me out.

I never understood it....I was even warned at work to be careful as to not get kidnapped and forced into a sex trade in Haiti...Go Figure!!!!

I love my Caribbean people...I truly love them...I read about the beauties of Haiti in my Caribbean literature class at Howard.

But always the stigma attached, the color divide, the poverty, the haves the have nots...all these things the same as the African American people...so sad our brown people suffer across the continent from being divided by all things related to color.

My heart bleeds and aches for Haiti...I pray this will finally "Wake-Up the World" to the poverty of Third World Countries of Brown People...because just like Jamaica, Guyana, Dominican Republic, Cuba....countries with brown people in poverty.

When will we figure it out that all people must be taken care of????

No matter the political climate or US Sanction...when will we all wake-up and realize...children are dieing everyday...for what????

We have all been brainwashed to hate each other and it must stop...we must learn to love...I'm sure every one's God preaches this...


I pray for Haiti....I pray for Haiti....

Transforming

I think I've been stripped of everything...there is nothing left...and I believe the only one left for me to lean on is God.

It's not a bad thing it is what it is...I believe that all these things have happened for a reason.

The Past....

I'm still working on letting a lot of stuff go...relationships, things from my childhood...old ways of thinking...old habits...bad things.


The Present...
Being present is a MUG!!!!!!!!! I have to be very present and living in this moment that I have right now...I feel things, I see things, I am gaining back control of my life.

My children...the most important thing to me. I have to remain present and not stressed in order to keep them happy considering how things are right now.

I want to get through all this divorce, and chemo confusion I'm sure they feel right now and allow them to just be themselves and be happy and have fun.

I"m eating better ya'll!!! Whew whooo....if there is a ya'll out there :)

I'm talking WATER...wow...lots and lots of water....my word...I've even upped my fresh fruits and veggies...my body is so confused right now! lol

It's probably thinking WTH!!! lol

But it's beyond time for a change...now I just have to find running time.

Yes...I want to truly loose some weight and really have a healthier body...all the stress of the past few years and poor eating has taken it's toll on my body.


Break Away...Get Away...

I'm feeling this amazing urge to pack up and LEAVE!!!

Like I just don't want to be here anymore!!!! I want to find a nice affordable place to live...a great career and watch my girls grow up into the magnificent women they are destined to be!!!!!

Party Time...

I went to a "Day Party" last Saturday. Wow...talk about FUN!!!!

However, the party scene, dating, meeting thing is VERY NEW to me! LOL

So I will have to post about my views on this whole dating thing later.

The Future....

A beautiful man said to me "Why don't you just find a position teaching these little knuckled heads or something that preps you to become a professor...you know that's where your heart is"

Volumes...I'm gonna stop right there!!!!!!

Blogging Takes Discipline

I kid you not I have thought about writing on several occasions and even wrote a post last week and it didn't upload go figure!!!!

Today was chemo day...it was light and easy...Jo didn't need a blood transfusion, whew!

Writing:

I'm seriously wondering if it is even possible to be religious about this writing thing. It's intimidating it's scary it's your inner most thoughts (most of them) for the world to read.

Death and Life are in the power of the tongue...
Which is why I haven't made an announcement "JORDAN HAS CANCER"
I've never wanted to accept it as that or put it out in the universe like that.

I believe the Cancer is out of her and she is 'healing now'. She doesn't have Cancer.

Folks don't get it...it's all about your mind and how you handle it...and that will affect your healing and recovery.

We don't have time for sadness, because we are healing in my house.

She smiles, I smile, we laugh...we are continuing to embrace life.