Transforming

I think I've been stripped of everything...there is nothing left...and I believe the only one left for me to lean on is God.

It's not a bad thing it is what it is...I believe that all these things have happened for a reason.

The Past....

I'm still working on letting a lot of stuff go...relationships, things from my childhood...old ways of thinking...old habits...bad things.


The Present...
Being present is a MUG!!!!!!!!! I have to be very present and living in this moment that I have right now...I feel things, I see things, I am gaining back control of my life.

My children...the most important thing to me. I have to remain present and not stressed in order to keep them happy considering how things are right now.

I want to get through all this divorce, and chemo confusion I'm sure they feel right now and allow them to just be themselves and be happy and have fun.

I"m eating better ya'll!!! Whew whooo....if there is a ya'll out there :)

I'm talking WATER...wow...lots and lots of water....my word...I've even upped my fresh fruits and veggies...my body is so confused right now! lol

It's probably thinking WTH!!! lol

But it's beyond time for a change...now I just have to find running time.

Yes...I want to truly loose some weight and really have a healthier body...all the stress of the past few years and poor eating has taken it's toll on my body.


Break Away...Get Away...

I'm feeling this amazing urge to pack up and LEAVE!!!

Like I just don't want to be here anymore!!!! I want to find a nice affordable place to live...a great career and watch my girls grow up into the magnificent women they are destined to be!!!!!

Party Time...

I went to a "Day Party" last Saturday. Wow...talk about FUN!!!!

However, the party scene, dating, meeting thing is VERY NEW to me! LOL

So I will have to post about my views on this whole dating thing later.

The Future....

A beautiful man said to me "Why don't you just find a position teaching these little knuckled heads or something that preps you to become a professor...you know that's where your heart is"

Volumes...I'm gonna stop right there!!!!!!