I Will Not Break....

Yesterday I went to Borders searching for Inspiration...Book, Magazines, Newspapers, Bibles, World Politics and Metaphysics...It's amazing what you can feed your brain!

Sooo I have this foundation within me...Christianity...and without getting too Churchy I will speak honestly about this morning's revelation.

The Wind is BLOWING HARD today...I mean by all accounts and the National Weather Service Advisory this is BAD!!!! My deck furniture is all still in place...so far so good. But I was trying to sleep in this morning...but the Wind was blowing so hard I had to get up...maybe God was trying to tell me something along with Chak...on FB telling me to GET UP!!!!

Back to my foundation...Christianity...for the past 48 Hours something had been weighing on me to watch the video series I purchased from Church last year...I remember attending a service where I was just worn out...stressed about the divorce and my finances...I mean...just so beat down that all I could do was go to church and pray...and on that day Co-Pastor Deborah preached a service that touched the core of my existence.

The Sermon was titled I Will Not Break


You see at that time I was coming to terms with the split and loosing it all.

Much like this morning...just trying to understand why in the world God had allowed all of this to happen....

2 Corinthians 4:8~We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair

Wow...on every side...Yup that about sums it up...

I mean honestly there is nothing left...and I still have to praise God for allowing me to walk through this all!

But let me back track...to my Nana...I have to thank you!!! You told me at an early age...that I was destined for greatness...that walks with me everyday of my life.

How about maybe, just maybe I am finally beginning to walk in greatness as I rebuild my life.

I lost it all...House, Companion, Health of my child, and sense of normalcy as I thought I knew it.

But this was all supposed to happen...right...my steps are predetermined by God. Right??? The plan was already laid out for me at birth...so here I am.

While watching the sermon and listening to co-Pastor...she said that thing about having a Voice.

That God had me experience all of this...divorce, betrayal, lost house, Jordan's illness, and all the mental and emotional roller coasters in order to use my Voice.

I'm smiling...because at first this morning I was crying...perplexed...that is a serious state of affairs.

But I'm Still Standing, I will not break!

That speaks volumes...This walk...is leading me to a greater destiny...and I'm speaking this into existence NOW...I'm sure there are many other women who've experienced what I've experienced in some bits and pieces...but all at once...

Wow...I'm beginning to get it...I'm understanding more and more...as the wind continues to blow...I get it...and I'm rejoicing in all this and all that was stripped away...God has a funny way of making us walk through things...

To bring you to your greatest moment...Where you can say...OK GOD...I hear you...I will follow your plan...I will not break in the face of adversity...

I will continue to thank you for the trials...

God is trying to squeeze something out of me

Hey...how bout that...I'm writing again...

Today...I'm going to enjoy this day...and continue to be enlightened by this mornings discovery.

I will not break...

I have a voice...