I'm Ending My Relationship with My Ego

My Ego has been in a horrible relationship with me for the last few years. From constantly pressuring me to do more, be better, work harder, stay angry, hold a grudge, not forgive, argue, over analyze and not enjoy life's little things.

Today...I'm saying good-bye to the relationship I have because it's affecting my other relationships.

It keeps me from bonding, revealing my true self, connecting and just genuinely enjoying myself...always thinking...calculating and driving me insane.


It's texting me when I don't want to read and I read anyway.

It's reminding me that I'm drinking Red Wine out of a White Wine class.

It's telling me that I'm not good enough.

It's telling me my boobs are too big.

It's telling me that I'm not doing a good job.

It's making me unsettled when I should be calm.

It's making me miss out on love which is probably staring me in my face.

Hell it's probably keeping my blood pressure high...

My ego has made me walk away from some really good people...Heck it almost made me not blog...

So today...I'm saying ...To The Left To The Left...

I will ignore the text.

I will enjoy the wine.

I am good enough.

My boobs are GREAT!

I'm doing an excellent job.

I will calm the hell down and relax!

I will embrace & enjoy true love.

I will do something to make this damn blood pressure go down...Oh like smile or relax or exhale.

I will open up and let down the wall...hello world...

Relationships Suck!!!!

So a few days ago I was walking into the office with another young woman...she's turning 33 and she asked me about my weekend. I told her it was a series of unusual events which consisted of me juggling my kids and a dating life....

Funny she told me..."I hate this dating thing...it completely sucks!" And I quickly concurred.

I mean what is it??? Is it the dating in your 30's thing...Is it middle aged dating...(wait am I middle aged? NOT) or is it just the utter confusion of the process of learning to get to know another individual that creates a great feeling without loosing yourself????

It completely does SUCK...

I've been reading a book by Deepak Chopra...The Path To Love and the book is so intense I keep putting it down...but is it helping me???


It kinda puts you in that spiritual, misty...I'm in the mood for love phase when most of the folks one may encounter are only looking to 'Smack it up, Flip it and Rub it Down'

So now what...

Admit your weakness & flaws...me I know mine...I'm spoiled...I always want my way...I'm high maintenance...I wear my heart on a sleeve...and I've often had POOOR(notice the extra O) judgement in men.

From the I just wanna be friends to the I just want to sleep with you to the I don't know what I want to the oh I'm trying to get a record deal to the oh I have to travel for work...to the oh I'm single until I get the middle of the night text asking me to speak to his Girlfriend to say I'm just a 'friend from college' (yup that happened)...

So how do we make relationships less sucky:

1. Lowered expectations
2. Celibacy
3. Date for like a year
4. Background checks :)
5. Genealogy Checks...Yup just do it
6. IQ tests...hey you never know
7. Text checks (so you can see the text message history) :)
8. Honesty Check...really just throw the Bull Shit flag every now & Again
9. Written Essay...just to know if you're gonna win an argument or not...:)
10.LOVE

I suppose if that LOVE number one you wouldn't need the rest right?

Just some thoughts about the extent of ways to make relationships a little less sucky...Do you have any additional suggestions?????